Come out, come out, wherever you are: A call to Passion.

I wonder how many other people walk around with a sense they are supposed to accomplish something bigger and better than what they are currently doing.

Because I do. And yet I know it’s all relative. I do a lot. I accomplish a lot. And thinking I always need to top myself is a challenge, but one that I adore (usually). The times it’s too much pressure I list of all I have done up to this point and I feel better.

So many people seem content, or at least clear about what drives them forward. These people talk about finding their passion. These people proclaim that when do you do what you love, it doesn’t seem like work. I am fascinated by these people and want to ask them how they and their passion met. Did they always know? Was it happenstance? Was it truly something they couldn’t turn away from, or was it a series of conveniences they decided to accept as passion?

Are these the same people that believe in love at first sight?

Because I don’t. I believe in attraction at first sight, or interest at first sight. I believe there can be an instant connection with another person. But true love, for me, lives in the intersection of right time, right place, and right person. A true love ménage a trios, in the spiritual sense.

And true love takes work to keep it true and to keep it love. It doesn’t just happen. This brings me back to passion. The nature of passion seems to be that all-consuming, sweep-you-off-your-feet, make-it-impossible-to-consider-any-alternative, type of experience. Passion announces itself. That idea of passion feels like “love at first sight.” If I don’t believe in love at first sight, can I believe in a passion that doesn’t appear as something I automatically know to be “the one?” Can passion be quiet and unassuming and gently push you forward, step by step? Or is it something other than passion if that’s what it is?

Does passion declare itself to me, or do I declare something to be my passion? And if it is the latter, how do I choose? I can talk myself into being passionate about the idea du jour. But I get bored easily, which makes me feel like it was faux passion.

I am completely ready to follow my passion and accomplish great things; I just need help figuring out which of my thoughts, ideas, and interests is my true passion. I know once I do there’ll be no stopping me. I just don’t want to make the wrong choice because the ideas not taken might feel left out and seek revenge.